My heart is filled with such gratitude to my loving Heavenly Father and all He has done for me. Of all the trials I’ve gone through, of all the pain and confusion, of all the enduring, I look at all of it as a blessing. How immensely grateful I am that our Father in Heaven allows us to face trials, often unknowing of why we must go through them, and then once we are out of the tunnel, He lets us look back at the path we’ve taken and see how we have changed, grown, or even just how that path, that exhausting trial, was the best way. That’s where I’m at right now. I feel as though I’m peeking out the front of the tunnel, not quite done, but able to catch a glimpse of why Heavenly Father has led me the way He did. There were times, many times, when I broke down with a heart so weighed and yearning to be done with my trial. I would fall to my knees and pour out my heart, desperate for rest, for understanding. My heart now is overwhelmed with gratitude to my loving Heavenly Father. In those moments of weakness, He lovingly comforted me and gave me the strength to keep going, as if He were saying, “Hold on, it’ll be alright in the end, I’m right here.” And then wrapping me in His arms, would give the strength to go on in faith and trust.
It seems like forever when we are in those kinds of moments, when the end just doesn’t seem like its coming fast enough and when our faith and trust in Heavenly Father grow weak. In those moments of weakness, He wraps us in arms of tenderness and love, giving us the strength to get back up and continue in faith. He is always there and desirous that we should succeed in order to experience His joy that is promised us if we endure well. I look back on my moments when my trials seem so large but in reality, there is so much to be grateful for. In every one of those times when my heart was so burdened, I could always find something that would show me Heavenly Father was right there beside me, helping me through every step until I could stand up beside Him again. My heart now is so overwhelmed with more understanding of why some trials needed to take place and why things needed to happen in HIS time, not mine. His time, His plan, His gospel, is perfect. He is perfect. How humbled I am from my own weakness. If everything God does is perfect, then why do I doubt Him? Of everything that I have learned over this time of trial, the most significant lesson I’ve grown from is to have faith and trust in God’s time and plan. He is all knowing and perfect; He is guiding me on the path that is best and will stand beside me through all the trials I will face.
O, how joyous my heart is knowing how much my Heavenly Father loves me and wants me to be happy. Knowing that as long as I stay firm on the path He guides me, God will strengthen me, comfort me, and carry me through those times when I need Him the most. How grateful I am, and how much I love my Heavenly Father.
